Well, now that my husband has returned to Korea I find that there is less and less to do with my time. Lately I have been doing nothing but sitting either at the library or home messing around on the internet or with a video game depending on my whereabouts.

Anyway, seeing as I have very few friends at this particular juncture in my life I have been just hanging out talking to random people on line. Actually I have made quite a few friends this way. I just like the fact that on the internet you can actually talk to people and get to know them without them just judging you on your appearance or something superficial like that.

Anyway, I don't know when I will be able to put up new deviations as of yet because of my lack of a scanner. I also don't really have a computer of my own at the moment, so it's difficult to put anything on line or to even edit on the computer. I've also been practicing with markers and they really help to bring your creations to life.

Honestly I really like computer animation but since I don't have a coputer of my own I can't really practice with that. I mean I got some practice in vocational training but not much. Just enough to tell myself that I liked it. Anyway, I probably won't be able to get any deviations up for another two to three months for those of you who still care for my work.

Anyway, it was a long trip to get back here but I finally made it. I survived being sick for the drive down and sleeping in a sleezy hotel in Tennessee where I could not sleep due to hearing people screwing in the room next to me. But I made it. I lived to fight another day.

As soon as I got down here I had to go and do so much crap I was not sure what I was going to do. I was sooooo overwhelmed. Anyway, I haven't fallen into a depression yet and I hope that I won't any time soon.

Just a list of things I had to do:

x clean the house
x do all my dirty laundry
x Seek counseling
x Change my meds
x Change my address at post office
x Change my address at insurance building
x Get my phone service working again
x Wash the car and clean the interior

That basically covers it and now I am trying to find a job on base as something to keep me busy so that I am not sitting at home all day staring at the walls. That's what drove me insane last time I was here. Oh well, at least my hubby's coming home in two weeks.

I know you were all probably thinking that I had just given up on artwork because I took almost everything down and didn't put anything up for the longest time. Truth is I have been looking for a way to put something new up for quite some time now.

Anyway I have a lot more stuff but that is all I could get up today because that scanner I'm using wants to be retarded. (DEATH TO THE SCANNER!!!! )

Back to the subject. Anyway I hope you all enjoy my newest additions and I will tty to put more up shortly.

It kind of sucks that my husband had to go away to Korea but then again there really isn't anything I can do about it short of hiding in baggage to go with him. But then I would be living in a closet for a year so I think I like the alternative of staying here after all.

I surprised myself however. I've never lived on my own before so this is completely new to me. To say the least I'm a bit afraid. Anyway I made a nice meal for him the night before he left and wondered to myself 'Why does time just have to fly by when you don't want it to?'

So now I am alone for the holidays. The only living things that will be with me are my two dogs. Honey and Luna. I really did not want to put up any Christmas decorations because I figured that it would just make me feel worse than I already do, but my mom forced me to take my Christmas tree home when I went up to Michigan to see my family for Thanksgiving. She told me that I was not allowed to be a scrooge even though that's kind of what I wanted. Oh well.

I still do not have my license yet so I had to walk all the way to the library from my house and it seems so far away when you get limited sleep and have to walk. But there are a few things I need to look into here, so I had to come. I've decided that in order to meet more people I am going to join a couple clubs, seeing as I really don't have any real friends as of yet. And along with that I also need to find a job. So I needed to check my e-mail to see if anything was sent to me concerning a job that may include a paycheck. Damn my life sucks right now.

Anyway, I figure that getting a job and joining some clubs should help me meet some people so that I won't be so lonely. And if neither does that than I could collect a paycheck and fill some of my empty hours anyway so really it's a win win situation.

This is crap! I've put in a ton of applications down here and not one callback. Whenever I check on an application I'm told that they are not hiring right now or some such excuse. I hate too much time at home and all I'm really asking for is a chance to meet some people that I can talk to while my husband is away.

I've even tried going online to some help wanted sites and that is not even working! So tell me what the hell does someone have to do in order to get a job around here?

I suppose that I can't get too frustrated yet seeing as I just got back from my vacation in Michigan. Part of that did not go too well either. I decided that I would wait and get my licence in Michigan so when I got there I immediately set up an appointment for a road test. I practiced my ass off just so that I could pass it driving my husbands manual car and what happens? I got an automatic failure becasue I did not see the turning lane! Down here I don't have to bother making an appointment, I just have to walk in before 4:00. So now it is at my convenience.

On the first my husband and I are going to go down to the bank of America and set up a joint account so that while he's away he can put some money into it for my personal use. I'm also going to apply for a credit card so that I can start building up some credit. The main reason I am trying to get a job is so that I can buy myself a new computer because the one I have now is such a piece of crap I want to hit it with a hammer! Well more like a sledge hammer. I hate that stupid piece of crap. It's a gateway one with a pentium 1 tower. It only has 16 colors because the past owners took out the video chip. I can't put internet on it; all it can do is type and it can't even print anything! I don't want anythig big just something with a newer microsoft word program and a C.D burner

Anyway, I just got Luna back yesterday. I didn't realize how much I missed her. When my husband and I were in Michigan my mom bought her this toy. It's supposed to be a weiner dog and it has squekers on both the front and back of it. Before we left my parent's dogs were going nuts trying to get a hold of it. But Luna likes it and I guess that's all that matters.